The struggle is real.
I have hit that wall that I hit when I’m pantsing my stories, but at least I am working on an outline. Surpassing that wall — of what my brain and heart and soul and other dramatic language regarding body parts is blocking — is difficult. I have a … feeling. Nothing concrete. Glimpses of what Wren is feeling in these later chapters. Questions that need to be asked and answered. Things that need to be inserted into the story but I’m not quite certain WHERE. As I write this though, the solution is clearly obvious. Toss up scene cards in Scrivener and don’t worry about where in the book they will ultimately reside in. Just get these ideas out. Onto paper and all of that rot.
Okay. Okay. I’ve talked myself off the ledge. Ish.
I am a pantser. I do not know why I am so upset that I might not have a full outline to go before the start of NaNoWriMo. What I currently have done is a lot better than NOTHING. There is a path for me to take at the beginning and towards the middle. Maybe just setting out on this path will help me unlock more things to come once I allow myself to sit down and write it all out.
I can. And I will do this. I haven’t any choice because this is what I want.
Wren, your story will be told. Possibly a bit more meandering and with an absolute lot of garbage in this first draft. There will be so much I forget to put into your story, and so much I will likely have to take out of that first draft. But I want to tell your story. I want to take the time that is needed. I think other people might like your story too.
And if not… that’s fine. No one else really matters here except for me and you. Me, because I’m the one typing away furiously (or I will be) to tell your story. And you, because it is YOUR story. Even if you aren’t a real person. I want to and will do justice by you. It just might take awhile. And lots of revisions, edits, and rewrites. And that’s okay. I just have to allow myself to GET to those points.
Wren, let’s tell your damn story.
Okay, I took a break from writing this blog entry to write down ideas for those scenes where I feel as if we need them but I’m not sure, precisely, which chapter or part of the book to fit them in.
I feel better!
How is your NaNo prep going? What bits do you struggle with? How excited are you for NaNoWriMo to start? I am super excited. The adventure will truly begin in less than a week!